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A Meditation on Empty Places (and an evocation of possibility)

He who loves with passion lives on the edge of the desert 

East Indian Proverb 

From Edge of Taos Desert 

an escape to reality 

Mabel Dodge Luhan

 

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It seems to me I am destined to live in the wilderness. I have been a city creature, but some dimly glimpsed doorway, a portal now shrouded, comes instant-by-instant into focus, and I know, like Alice, I will be down a rabbit hole and find myself on the other side. The event horizon is a gravitational pull that cannot be resisted. A black hole is an opening that connects one parallel universe to another. Floating on a membrane, worlds brush and swell against one another until their collision blisters a pathway from the known to the unknown. An infinite sum total of possibilities are mathematical evidence that speak of a probable other version of myself that I will find on the hidden flank of C.S. Lewis’s magic wardrobe. My apparition is an unassuming fistula, yet it calls to me with the transfixing force of a drift of yellow butterflies appearing spontaneously in a still and colorless landscape. 

 

The human woman is a wild mustang, a hummingbird, a pronghorn antelope, a mountain lion, and a diamond-back rattlesnake. Her physical body is transient, collapsing into a shaft of vapor. Eroticism is real, its limits concealed only by the boundaries of imagination. We have passed through a divide to embody the essence of another place that is beyond and outside of Nature. A city, I am the heart of any universal capital, my consciousness moves spontaneously upward. Shanghai, with my plethora of new glistening towers, the tallest obelisques to authoritativeness yet seen, I proclaim myself an economic power in the 21st century. On the opposite side of the globe, the sun takes a bite out of the pillars and shafts of my torso, skyscrapers that Georgia O’Keeffe, who was never an urban spirit, painted in the early part of the last century. I am a ubiquitous man-made construct, Piet Mondrian’s Broadway Boogie-Woogie, all staccato phrase, overlapping cube and jazz-age neon, where the heavens are detected piecemeal, in between the thrust of steel and stone. I pulse with artificial life and the recesses of my concrete canyons are rifts in a metropolis where no animal foot may feel the soil beneath its naked step. It is a vertical geography of mortal creation that no God would presume to build.  

 

A desert is a kind of ocean, but a sea is not a wilderness that is easily penetrated by a land-dwelling beast, at least, that is, in a linear-sequential-thinking context. I am a blue-skinned nomadic chieftain, a Tuareg warrior-prince in a matriarchal line. Black- turbaned and indigo-veiled, my tribal coverings protect my countenance from blowing sands and ward off evil specters. By day I pitch my tent in the curved cup-edge of a dune, a wave of an eccentric kind. By night I sail through, across and inside of shifting shoals of silicone-dioxide, until I am one with its grainy condition. Over steppe and savanna, camel-mounted in caravan, I am guided by the clear light of Africa’s Seven Sisters constellation. Dates, millet, cheese, butter, cloth, leather, jewels and ostrich feathers are my ancient Saharan trade goods, bartered from Egypt in the east, to the southern territories of Libya and Algeria, and deep into Mali, crossing the hot borders on its northern frontier. Gold and silver Agadez crosses, fashioned in flame, sell across the Atlantic and as far away as Santa Fe. My eyes know the arc of a distant horizon, my flesh the temperature of a sheltering sky, my nostrils the smell of bovine urine when it fixes organic dye, my tongue the taste of a salted wind, my ear the sound of a tisiway poem sung out loud to the beat of a goatskin tambour. Tuareg written language is rarely used, and the history of my people is recorded in oral tradition, passed down in verse as a never-ending story, from generation to generation. My being has no meaning detached from place, and I am in and all around the space from which I come.  

 

I am writer and artist, a poetry-painter of the painted poems of my dreams. A Comanche painted-pony rider of an American Serengeti. I see myself, the blue Tuareg brave in another desert plain. Land-locked, I know the ring of snow-capped summits that lifts in sudden and terrifying magnificence and whose jagged peaks punctuate a Shoshoni, Crow, Ute, Cheyenne and Arapaho sky. Your scenic vista was once a watery marshland where mine was a sweeping scape of fire. Earth laments in unrighteous Tuvan throat- chant when it sounds its volcanic legacy from rock and steam below. Black Hills weep tears near Mt. Rushmore, a white culture’s scar in a sacred Red Indian land. What neck of the woods we dwell in is no small affair. I know that now. It’s as if recurring galactic gamma-bursts, sent by some far-away tribe, have been broadcasting musical messages encoded in light. Their meaning is without a context, for we have yet to evolve a scientific equation of all things, a theory where gravity and quantum physics function harmoniously like notes on a stave. My communication is secret and an intimate exchange. No one else can read the symbols and they constitute a lust-letter, a glowing and rhythmic symphony that is composed for me alone. 

 

My pictures come from a forbidden oasis. These portrait-figures are at once mine and not mine, for they surface, almost in spite of myself, from a lake that is both inside of and detached from me, and whose submerged world is accessed each time from a different location – a grassy channel, a fork in the road less traveled, a bumpy old-west wagon trail along the Turquoise Highway. The laguna is uncharted, mysterious, dark and seductive. I wish to be there all the time. It is an energy region of fluctuating boundaries, where visions flow and overlap, unbridled and free, a drug I have never taken and a love I have yet to make. In an oxygen-thirsty body and a literal-minded head, I cannot be an eight-tentacled octopus, a Pacific giant squid, or an Orca swimming in the Puget Sound. Oceans are universes that will not be breached and the rivers that course into them are moving corridors that carry someone else’s idea to a completed whole. It is to high country I am compelled, to Abiquiu at 7,000 feet, the Faraway Nearby of an unexpected woman’s enchanted plateau. I am Mabel Dodge Luhan, Georgia’s Greenwich Village friend. Reaching Taos pueblo in the dead of darkness, I find my authentic self and an adobe house before morning. New Mexico belongs to me before I arrive. 

 

Wilderness. Water is not what comes easily to mind when we think of the place. Wilderness is a wasteland, an untamed and harsh state and a parched and barren sight. We should suffer a bit to be there, be Moses in the Sinai, and a bearded aesthete who rarely bathes, inhabits a precipice cave, and wears naught but a rough woven loin cloth to cover his toasted form. Wet is the fortune of the living and ocean is the fertile soup from whence we came in the beginning. Our very breath is an echo of tides that were witness to our evolution. But the sea can never be more than epidermis, a layer covering something invisible, and a crucible that we cannot come home to. Convulsed in the perfect storm, off the Cape of Good Hope, off the tip of Argentina between Patagonia and Antarctica, we can only glide on its surface, or disappear eternally from mortal reach. I imagine myself, cloche-capped, dressed in a man-suit, an s.fischer silk wrap, (the padparadschah one), about my shoulders and my grandmother’s diamond Art Deco brooch at my neck. I am Alice B. Tocklas and Gertrude Stein, Sylvia Beech, Jannet Flanner and Solita Solano, Noel Murphy, Margaret Anderson and Jane Heap, Djuna Barnes and Thelma Wood, Natalie Clifford Barney, Romaine Brooks and Bernice Abbott, (I could go on). I am a suffragette in 1920 celebrating the 19th Amendment, and I cross the indomitable deep from Brooklyn harbor by ship, to Southampton and on to Cherbourg in France. The sea is a circle when I am in its center. I am a Zen-master and the circle is mine because I have dared to draw its difficult and easy circumference. There is no more challenging thing. 

 

Place is a funny concept. Like beauty, its quality is hard to define. If you are impious by upbringing it will be a sentimental fancy, a romantic caprice, an impulsive ostentation to expect location to be the catalyst that releases a great intelligence, that ephemeral genius unique to us each (believe it!). Growing up on a small and crowded island, the elemental root of my being could never find completeness in the Anglo, the Saxon, the Druid, the Viking, in those makers of the hoard of Sutton Hoo and all its Celtic splendor. England is a geography that has grown on me at arm’s length, and it is that distance that has helped me to discover closed-off kingdoms in myself. Soon enough I will revisit Britain’s mystic highlands, its honey-colored hamlets, the bleakness of the moors made eternal in the prose of Thomas Hardy and Jane Austin, for even in the writing of this, there is a hollow in me that misses, with an ache of longing, a marvel long ago taken away. 

 

All of us, if we are honest, know beauty when it is before us.  At the heart of all masterpieces of art is the commitment of its creator, who is willing to confront death to make a work sing. The artist is the Everest-climber who strives to reach the immortal top without knowing if she will make it down alive. The climbing is a meditation that connects the climber to the sweet joy of existence. The hindsight of history and the analysis of academic criticism are superfluous to experiencing great creation in the gut. Similarly, we feel it in our core when we are in sync with place, for it participates in mutual benefit and shares a passion that is true. Just as art is a synergy between maker and viewer, landscape is an exchange between the container and the contained.  

 

As soon as I saw it, that was my country. [ ] It fitted to me exactly. It’s something that’s in the air. It’s just different. The sky is different, the stars are different, the wind is different. 

Georgia O’Keeffe 

 

And so too was Miss O’Keeffe different, for even with a giant and certain skill, she had the courage to be the pioneer. It is her canvases that transmit her power long after the bones and blood of the woman are gone. When Georgia O’Keeffe came to the wide, gleaming stretch of earth that is the Piedra Lumbre basin in Northern New Mexico for the first time in May 1929, she knew she would return again and again. Each summer and fall she embraced it with abandon, until she became a permanent resident in 1949. Alfred Stieglitz had died three years earlier, she had settled his estate, and now she had no reason not to live where she felt herself whole and where her paintings would ripen into a perfected completeness. The magnetic attraction of this Valley of Shinning Stone was nothing new. Many had immersed themselves in Georgia’s impeccable theatre prior to her auspicious arrival, and many continue to do so in contemporary times. Indigenous Pueblo Indians of New Mexico believe that the earth is alive with the heartbeat, emotions and thoughts of every human that has walked across it. The land vibrates with the spirit of those who have come before, and the tales of ancient people lie scattered like pebbles in the spaces they once dwelled. It is a compelling land that has lured and quickened the pulse of many a poet. Even at this distance from where I put pen to paper, I smell the burning piñon upon the breeze, I see the rock walls that gleam transcendental hues, I know the evening sky that twinkles a billion constellations, I touch the eagle wing above and the Rio Grand below, and I hear the chorus of whispers from a thousand years of stories told by Navajo, Tewa, Apache, Hispanic and European voices. I feel my body electric when I contemplate this unusual and empty place, and I am certain it is to the wilderness I am bound. 

 

Maggie Gardner